Tolstoy Begins The Kreutzer Sonata


“As so often, the story came to him by someone telling him an anecdote. He started it, laid it aside, and allowed the idea to gestate. Then followed a period of intense writing and rewriting. In this case, the anecdote came from an actor called Vasily Nikolayevich Andreyev-Burlak. He had been to see the Tolstoys on June 20, 1887, and in the after-dinner circle he described meeting a stranger in a train, who had poured out to him the story of his wife’s unfaithfulness. Tolstoy had immediately doodled with this tale and at that point thought of it as his story of ‘sexual love’. The next year, in their Moscow house, he was again in Andreyev-Burlak’s company. Tolstoy’s children put on a little concert for a gathering of friends, Andreyev-Burlak came, and Repin the painter. The children’s teacher, Yuly Lyasota, played the violin part of Beethoven’s ‘Kreutzer’ sonata, with Tolstoy’s son Sergey at the piano. It was very much part of the family repertoire and, as always, Tolstoy was moved by it. But now, for not more rational reason than the Andreyev-Burlak was present, Tolstoy came to associate it with the wronged husband in the railway carriage. He would write a monologue for Andreyev-Burlak to recite. Repin could paint the scene. It could be made to incorporate one of his unfinished short stories, The Man Who Murdered His Wife. Andreyev-Burlak could be enjoined to ‘perform’ this story as a dramatic monologue, rather like the public readings of Dickens.”

Tolstoy, A.N. Wilson, W.W. Norton & Company, Inc., 1988.

Nathan Milstein plays Beethoven’s Kreutzer Sonata (1st Mov):

Dose, September 30, 1995,10:00 pm – ?


Inside the flyer:

‘i have the soul of the tree in me/ i have the light of the skies in my eyes/ oceans run in my veins/ i am soaked in nature when it rains/ and the earth’s rich energy sets me free’

San Francisco’s ‘FUNKY TEKNO TRIBE’ is a neo-mythical clan of promoters, D.J’s and partygoears that come together to celebrate life and freedom, uniting all of mother earth’s indigenous tribes. Dance as ritual celebration is the key metaphor here and the ‘FUNKY TEKNO TRIBE’ succeeds in exploring this relationship.

By combining state-of-the-art intelligent lighting, cyberorganic visuals with living tropical foliage, tribal motifs and elemental backdrops, a new world is offered– one which does not lend itself to any other place or time.

The music at this ‘FUNKY TEKNO TRIBE’ event compliments the future/primitive environment and is best characterized as a swirling mixture of progressive house, acid, trance, tribal and funky electro beats. Played by San Francisco’s Barry Weaver, D.J. Dan and special guest from Los Angeles and Bassex Records Eric Davenport. Complementing the ‘FUNKY TEKNO TRIBE’ is the much anticipated return of DOSE PRODUCTIONS resident D.J.’s Hipp-e from Denver and Czech from Vancouver, alongside Toronto’s finest.

On September 30th 1995 DOSE PRODUCTIONS Toronto invites all like minded partygoers to join in our celebration of DANCE, MUSIC, LOVE and LIFE.

Peace! : )

The living tropical foliage mentioned in the flyer didn’t fare very well. Party promoters would occasionally videotape their events, and two decades later the footage has made its way online. What’s striking now is that none of the young adults and teenagers were looking at or taking pictures with phones. It was the last generation to experience youth offline. Dose promised ‘a new world… one which does not lend itself to any other place or time,’ but it was actually the last chapter of the old one.

Edie Beale Attends President John Fitzgerald Kennedy’s Inauguration

Edie B

‘The Bouviers arrived first, followed by the Lees, the Auchinclosses, then the others, the Kennedys arriving last because they had endured the cold the longest. We all reached for the hot coffee or tea, the spiced punch, the champagne, the cocktails, anything to thaw out. Then we returned to our respective clans.

I walked over to Hugh Auchincloss. He had never met me before and didn’t know me from Adam. “I know all about you,” I told him. I almost spat in his face. I told him off for Jack Bouvier’s sake, for Jackie’s father.

The Kennedys all looked very unhappy. I couldn’t understand how, having finally attained their dream, they could be so morose. They seemed hyper and mororse at the same time. I’ve never seen so much unhappiness in one room before.

I went up to Joseph P. Kennedy, the patriarch, and told him that I’d almost been engaged to his eldest son, Joe Jr. I knew Joe Jr. from a Princeton house party. He was visiting Princeton, and so was I. So I told his father that if the almost-engaged had become a reality, and if Joe Jr. had lived and gone on to become President of the United States, then I, little Edie Beale, would now be a First Lady, and not cousin Jackie. He walked away from me shaking his head.’

Edie Beale, cousin to Jacqueline Kennedy and the star of 1975’s Grey Gardens interviewed by C. David Heymann

A Woman Named Jackie, C. David Heymann, Lyle Stuart, Inc., 1989



ST-C420-21-63  22 November 1963  Presidential motorcade on Main Street at Griffin Street, Dallas, Texas. Photograph by Cecil Stoughton, White House, in the John F. Kennedy Presidential Library and Museum, Boston.

Date: 11/22/1963

Creator: Photograph by Cecil Stoughton, White House, in the John F. Kennedy Presidential Library and Museum, Boston.

Copyright: Public Domain

Wooden Stars: Innocent Gears

Image ‘My brother’s first band was called Jerks at Play. They made their racket in the basement of our Ottawa home, played a few gigs at the junior high school, traced their name in the dust on our car’s back window.

The band didn’t last long; the writing on the wall (for me at least) was when their style evolved from fun, trashy punk to terribly dark and serious metal, a transition marked by the changing of their prospective album title from Open up and Say “Fuck You” to Book of Shadows.

The album was never completed–or, I don’t believe, ever even begun. But for a bunch of 12 and 13 year olds fucking around, they were fairly talented; a number of the members went on to become actual musicians. Perhaps the most notable aspect of the band was the presence of two drummers: my brother Nick and another kid named Andrew McCormack. During JAP’s cover of Zeppelin’s “Moby Dick,” the lengthy drum solo (or duo, I suppose) was actually pretty impressive, the two trading off fills that would have shamed many an older drummer.

By the time high school came around, both Nick and Andrew had undergone another musical metamorphosis, from metalheads to full-on jazz snobs. And so a few years later, I was a bit surprised when my brother told me that Andrew had joined, “some rock band” who were in talks to sign with Sub Pop. This was the early 90s, so the prospect of an Ottawa band joining the label who introduced Nirvana to the world was a big deal. I figured they were a grunge band and thought, “well, good for him.”‘

Wooden Stars: Innocent Gears, Malcolm Fraser, Invisible Publishing, 2013

A Successor, December 31, 1999


‘I had noticed Vladimir Putin when he headed the chief control directorate of the administration and then became first deputy to Yumashev, who was responsible for work with the region. Putin appeared in the Kremlin in March of 1997. Sometimes he was left in charge, and I would have the opportunity to deal with him more frequently. Putin’s reports were a model of clarity. Unlike other deputies, who were always trying to lay out their visions of Russia and the world, Putin did not try to strike up conversations with me. Rather, it seemed that Putin tried to remove any sort of personal element from our contact. And precisely because of that, I wanted to talk to him more.’

Midnight Diaries, Boris Yeltsin, BBS Public Affairs, 2000

Old Toronto Postcards


Jarvis St., Toronto.

‘Have a look at the street your brother lives on. it is sure very pretty. supposed to be Toronto’s prettiest street.’



Yonge Street at Queen, Toronto, Canada.

‘Monday–This will be about as far inland as we will get.–Enjoying ourselves. All send regards. (illegible signature). Mr. H. G. Hartman, State Street, Lancaster, Pa, U.S.A.’


Bridle Path, High Park, Peter Pan Monument, Feeding the Water Fowl, Catfish Pond, High Park Toronto, Canada.

‘Friday, Hi Kid. I told you before I was coming up this week-end. I will be on the bus Sat for sure. maybe the train. I’ll get in there on the 11- bus I hope. I am going out to Aunt Be’s to-day! got your card to-day. See you in town. Love. Flo.  Miss Miriam Robinson, Huntsville, Ont. R.R. #1.’


King & Yonge Streets, Toronto, Canada

‘Dear Scout-Master.–We arrived here safe and are getting settled down. It is raining. Yours, (illegible signature). E. H. Mills Thamesville, Ont.

E.H. Mills Home, Thamesville, Ontario:

Matt Damon’s AeroBed


Who could resist someone who would tell this story?

‘There was this article and it was about Matt Damon, and he was saying that he works so much that he doesn’t feel like he has a bed of his own anywhere. And it really struck me as this sort of sad thing. I was like, “He’s famous and he’s so cute and he’s Matt Damon and he should feel like he has a bed.” It just made me sad. So I sent him a bed. I sent him an AeroBed and a comforter and sheets. I wrote in there that I was a huge fan and that I wanted him to travel with it and feel like he had a bed wherever he went. I never heard back from him. I have (seen him since) and he’s kind of looked at me a little weird.’

Jennifer Love Hewitt, 2005.

Coffin Text 1130

Coffin Carter


Proceed in peace, that I may repeat to you the good deeds that my heart

has done in the midst of the coiled one in order to silence evil.

I have done four good deeds in the midst of the portal of the horizon.

I made the four winds, that every man might breathe in his time.

This is a deed thereof.

I made the great flood, that the poor man might have power like the great.

This is a deed thereof.

I made every man like his fellow.

I did not command that they do evil.

It is their hearts that disobey what I have said.

This is a deed thereof.

I made their hearts to cease forgetting the West, in order to make divine offerings to the gods of the nomes.

This is a deed thereof.

It is with my sweat that I created the gods,

While humankind is from the weeping of my eye…

It is for the One-who-is-weary of-heart (Osiris) that I made night….

Coffin Text 1130. The Coffin Texts funerary spells of the First Intermediate Period (2181-2055 BC) were initially written for the followers of Osiris in ancient Egypt. Coffin Text 1130 was a proselytizing tract for the Re religion.

Metaseries: ‘Out on a Limb’ at the Dawn of the New Age


Shirley MacLaine outlined her New Age beliefs in 1983’s best-selling Out on a Limb. The actress, singer, dancer, and political activist explained how she had come to embrace concepts like reincarnation, trance channelling, and human contact with extraterrestrials from the Pleiades. In 1987, MacLaine starred as herself in a five-hour ABC miniseries based on her book, which she co-produced and adapted for television with Colin Higgins.* A medium advised MacLaine that the deceased filmmaker Alfred Hitchcock had served as Out on a Limb’s paranormal script doctor. MacLaine shared this detail in 1987’s It’s All in the Playing, the book she wrote about the experience of writing, casting, and playing herself in the miniseries based on her autobiography. The self-reflexive genius of the projects is unmatched. Watching the film and then reading the book is like standing in between two mirrors, each one reflecting endlessly back onto the other.

Out ona LImb 2The American miniseries reached peak production in the 1980s, even as the arrival of cable shrank the audiences for NBC, ABC, and CBS. The number of viewers would still be unimaginable today: 43 million households watched The Thorn Birds in March of 1983. Thorn Birds producer Stan Margulies also co-produced Out on a Limb and Roots, which remains the third most-watched American television broadcast of all time.

Ghosts and extraterrestrials had taken up residence in the popular imagination. E.T. and Poltergeist followed Star Wars, The Exorcist, and Close Encounters of the Third Kind. “There is no Dana,” said Sigourney Weaver in Ghostbusters, “Only Zuul.” Increasingly, North Americans stopped praying to a scorekeeping, punishing, monotheistic God in favour of asking “The Universe”–a benevolent interstellar game show host who would happily grant everyone their deepest desires, if they’d only get out of their own way to allow it. Shirley MacLaine

MacLaine’s spiritual journey was prompted by an affair with a married politician and a sense of disquietude. She investigated reincarnation, visited trance channellers, and underwent an out-of-body experience while bathing in a spring in the Andes mountains. Out on the Limb was a relatively straightforward film: MacLaine falls in love, converses with friends and spiritual teachers, and travels to Peru to look for UFOS. “There’s not one car chase in the whole thing, no one gets killed,” Margulies told People magazine, “It deals with subjects that never get discussed.” To imagine any other actress of MacLaine’s stature standing on the beach with their arms extended screaming, “I am God!” is to realize the exceptional nature of Out on a Limb.

The trance channellers Kevin Ryerson and Sture Johansson also appeared as themselves in the miniseries. MacLaine, her mediums, and their entities all recreated the encounters she had described in the book. The Swiss medium Sture Johansson channelled an ancient spiritual master named Ambres. “Sture said that Ambres knew his lines and the subjects he should address himself to,” MacLaine wrote in It’s All in the Playing. Los Angeles-based Kevin Ryerson channelled an Irish pickpocket named Tom McPherson and John of Zebedee (the author of the Book of Revelation, who speaks in an Old English accent). Ryerson said he’d studied the script while the entities scanned his subconscious so they could study their lines.

Out on a Limb 7MacLaine’s good friend Bella Abzug auditioned to play herself, a part which ultimately went to Anne Jackson. The women’s expository dialectics gave the screenplay its structure. Abzug’s bid for mayor of New York featured in Out on a Limb, when a Peruvian psychic warned MacLaine that her friend would lose to dark-horse candidate Ed Koch (“the bald man with long fingers”). Bella remained a sceptic in the books and the miniseries, a surrogate for doubtful readers and viewers (even if she always wanted to know whether the entities predicted a win).

Abzug read for role opposite MacLaine, in the apartment where they’d had their original conversation. “I have never had an experience that so thoroughly brought home to me the truth that we each act our lives,” MacLain wrote. “We each project the image that we really wish to convey–the appearance of spontaneity notwithstanding…  I was aware of how I had said these very same lines years ago. So was Bella. And both of us were also aware that we had been acting them then.”

Out on a Limb 9The identities of Out on a Limb‘s remaining characters were hidden. “David Manning” (John Heard) was a composite of MacLaine’s various spiritual teachers and guides. The pseudonymous politician “Gerry Stamford” (Charles Dance) was described as a British Labour MP. In the ensuing decades, MacLaine wrote about her affairs with three politicians: Prime Ministers Pierre Trudeau (Canada), Olof Palme (Sweden), and Andrew Peacock, the Australian Minister of Foreign Affairs.

Gerry Stamford was likely a composite character representing Peacock (who vacationed with MacLaine in exotic locations) and Palme (a committed democratic socialist). Admitting adultery with one married politician was a considerable risk of the audience’s goodwill in 1983. Gary Hart dropped out of 1984’s presidential race when his extramarital relationship was exposed, while Bill Clinton was elected after similar revelations eight years later. By 2011’s I’m Over All That: And Other Confessions, MacLaine admitted that she would sometimes leave Palme to rendezvous with Peacock.

“The role he played in my book, and now on film, was a testament to the timelessness of our relationship,” MacLaine wrote of Gerry Stamford in It’s All in the Playing. A videotaped copy of Out on a Limb has been uploaded to YouTube, where MacLaine and Charles Dance re-create the affair ad infinitum; picnicking in the countryside, bodysurfing in Oahu, and arguing over the paranormal.

“At the end of the day he was married yet carried on with Shirley,” Becca Price commented under one of the clips. “He could of left his wife but chose to stay with her, seems he forgets that bit when having a moan at her.”

“It wasn’t that simple,” Martin L 19 replied to Becca one month later. “It was the 70s. He had already been the Prime Minster of Sweden and he was about to win his second term. Had he chosen to leave his wife and go after MacLaine, his political career, most likely, would have been over.”

“In many ways Shirley MacLaine and Gerry Stamford are mirror images of each other,” Grainnie3 observed.

MacLaine insists throughout It’s All in the Playing that actual lives are just as self-reflexive as books and films. “We’ve both chosen a great part to play this time around, don’t you think?” she asked Abzug. She wrote about her last meeting with Gerry Stamford, who was, incredibly, unbothered by the existence of the book or the miniseries (then in production):

“Double vision prevailed for me as I observed him. I had adjusted to believing that Charles Dance was Gerry for weeks now. I had made that quantum leap in my imagination, putting the real Gerry somewhere out to pasture. Now as I stood before him I began to wonder who I was! Or put more precisely, what reality was. I was living an experience that proved I could make reality anything I wanted it to be.”

At one point, MacLaine reminisces about Peter Sellers in a voice-over, while onscreen she re-enacts shooting Being There with a Sellers look-alike. She was constantly writing and scribbling notes in the miniseries, which she narrated with passages from Out on a Limb. In the glow of the sunset on Malibu beach, she broke the fourth wall in the introduction, wearing the white hoodie she wore on the cover of her book. “I’m going to tell you a story that changed my life…”

Out on a Limb In Part II, MacLaine travelled to the Peruvian Andes with David Manning, where he gradually informed her she had been selected by extraterrestrials to share their wisdom with the world (by writing the book that became the miniseries Out on a Limb, in which she acted out her initial resistance to the idea that she had been chosen by extraterrestrials to write the book that begat the miniseries, and so forth). MacLaine and Manning rode in a driverless car controlled by an alien named Mayan, and MacLaine underwent an out-of-body experience with the aid of John Dykstra, who oversaw the special effects for Star Wars and 2001: A Space Odyssey (see link below).

Out ona Limb 3“Do you know something,” MacLaine told Manning after she returned to her body. “If this is dying, then I don’t know what there is in life to be afraid of.”

Overcoming the fear of death is a constant motif. “With reincarnation, there was no need to fear death,” MacLaine said in Part I. “It made me think differently about the world, and what was going on in it.” In Peru, she was shocked by Manning’s dispassionate reaction at the sight of an overturned school bus, but through her spiritual studies gained an appreciation of the eternal nature of the soul. MacLaine eventually reached a state of such equilibrium that decades later, she would in turn shock reporters by remarking that she could at last walk past her recently deceased neighbour’s house without his dogs attacking hers– “So that’s one good thing.”

Out on a Limb was shot on location in America, England, Sweden, and Peru. “I heard the word karma everywhere as relationships were buffeted about in storms of emotional conflict,” MacLaine wrote, “‘What goes around comes around’ was on everyone’s lips. A kind of clear karmic harmony began to become evident. If someone was cruel and short-tempered at ten in the morning, it took no longer than till eleven o’clock for that person to experience the same treatment from another.”

MacLaine was on location in Peru when Olof Palme was assassinated in Stockholm on February 28, 1986. In It’s All in the Playing, Bella Abzug phoned to tell her that Gerry Stamford had been killed in a car accident. It had happened, MacLaine wrote, at the hour when a star fell from the fingers of a broujo who was conducting a ritual in her trailer.

“My most profound understanding was that we are not just physical beings who happen to have souls,” MacLaine has written on her website, “We are first and foremost, fundamentally souls connected to the Universe who happen to be physical by our own choice on Earth at this time.” Swedish Channeler

MacLaine introduced these ideas to millions of people. Out on a Limb and its follow-up Dancing in the Light sold 5.2 million copies.  The summer after the miniseries aired, she lead a nationwide series of two-day seminars called “Connecting with the Higher Self.” The earnestness of the miniseries predates a time when even the commercials for a boy band’s perfume are ironic. Reincarnate on YouTube, Out on a Limb gains new fans every day.

“Thank you for posting this movie. I saw Shirley MacLaine on Oprah yesterday and she was speaking about the new age philosophy that I have been reading on for the past two years. I totally believe that I am God. Great story thank you for sharing. I may just go get the book.”


Shirley MacLaine Out on a LimbNotes

The Out of Body Experience:

*MacLaine was not the only star to play herself in a miniseries. Sophia Loren played herself and her mother Romilda in Sophia Loren: Her Own Story (1980). Joan and Melissa Rivers joined the party with their grim 1994 offering Tears and Laughter: The Joan and Melissa Rivers Story, and Deidre Hall starred in 1995’s Never Say Never: The Deidre Hall Story.

Colin Higgins (1941-1988) wrote and directed some of the best films of the 1970s and 1980s, including Harold and Maude, Foul Play, and 9 to 5.

The entire miniseries was generously uploaded to YouTube in twenty-four posts by “misterkrusty” in 2010: “I did record Out On A Limb from the original broadcast, part VHS, part Betamax. Be sure and watch the ABC Monday Night Movie promo for the series finale here too. I transferred all the parts to my hard drive and converted them for use on YouTube. I was amazed that all of the parts survived separately and came together so seamlessly after so many years. Guess it was meant to be. I was impacted by the Seth material in the 1980s and also by Lazaris. It is timeless information.”